I didn't--[Except that he did. He could have continued to hold off and not followed through with it. He could have ignored it a little longer, hoped that someone else would step up to the plate.

But desperate times and desperate measures means he's mapped out an entire plan on how to kill the girl he feels more affection for than he should.]

...the hero side is losing. You know this is a numbers game. We're losing too many of them from that faction and not enough of them are doing what they need to do. [And his voice cracks a little.] I have to help.